Breaking Bad-Habits

Old habits are hard to break, so the saying goes.

So where does one start? At their past-the root of the problems; or at the present-where they cause the deepest impact?
My past-well, its pretty much hermetically sealed for outsiders. It’s not malleable where we can take it and bend it to what we wish it looked like.
Not likely that would ever happen.

The present is the part of the spectrum that we happen to be present-in the now. This is the part which you are reading this sentence and can choose to leave at this period.

But if you continue to read this blog, like most people do, you tell yourself that you can shape it as it happens-or make decisions based on when you receive new data/input from your world. “I am in control of my destiny.”
Something like that.

Yes we have personal responsibility, but anyone can be pragmatic. Sometimes its a simple decision to put down the sword and pick up a pen-diplomacy and an open ear opens more barriers and opportunities for growth than anything in your past can be custom made to work. The past is not some part that does not fit and can be tooled/worked/ground to the shape that it becomes most useful in your present.

So I mentioned Breaking Bad at some point, well?
I think that Walt’s demise and resolution to the story will be that he simply has become what choice and road he never took, or ever spoke up about his own thoughts and thus in his death will become whole upon his terms.

Anyhow.

Lexikat

So What Kind of Guitarist Am I?

Believe it or not, Its not easy for me to find other musicians who can stand to perform together in either an informal or formal (paying venue) sense.

This is not an “I’m a victim” blog. Its a frustration blog unless we perfect cloning…so its more of an “empowerment blog.”

Female musicians typically have had no problem with me; male musicians have historically had some sort of “hang up” about my “gender status” . It often goes through the typical introduction (through correspondence); an exchange that follows learning about someone’s musical likes and dislikes and then they get around to their “tranny-stamp-of-disapproval” moment. I kind of hold guys to a higher standard after living 35 years socialized and indoctrinated as a boy. I know if there is a sudden disapproval moment where women are concerned, its right at the moment where they are concerned what other people think-no matter their initial “its about the music” and “its not about image” phase.
Or its some weird “sleep with you” moment.

Transsexual guitarist seeks band members to form a band.

So this means that the guitar itself was one gender, and someone either sawed something off, drilled a hole, or added something onto it? My ad simply said: I’m LGBTQ friendly and you should be too.

If I have mentioned that I’m not looking for a date, just musicians to jam with.  I am in a committed partnership with an ovarian cancer survivor.

Lesbian guitarist seeks band members to form a band.

Women even have had less sexual hangups in the dating world according to my experiences even. Its my preference and you really don’t have anything I want because my partner does an amazing job to fill my life.

Metal Guitarist Seeks Musicians Without Hang-ups

Perhaps the world isn’t ready for a guitarist who happens to be a transsexual woman, except the one from Against Me! named Laura Jane Grace. She was lucky to have the band, success, and then transition. I am sure I am oversimplifying her struggle, but just for the context of looking for musicians without a head full of “shit”, I’m a girl who just wants her opportunity to do more than play my amp in an apartment with my supportive partner as an audience. She is an amazing audience-has encouraged me along my way.

Metal-Rock Guitarist: Influences include Laura Jane Grace

I think I found my headline/tagline!

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Lexikat

How’s Your Guitar Grip: Tight, Loose, or Crazy

I have been around guitars and guitarists most of my life.  The grip of the fret hand sometimes reveals the style of the player. I myself hold very loose and yet have my fingers tight onto the fretboard. I rarely make chords with more than 3 strings, plus my grip allows my fingers to dance up or down a string when my brain says to.

Though I have observed it for a few years, I never really considered how one holds the neck in relation to how they play.

I notice that generally people who primarily play rhythm hold their fingers very tight and very close together. Their grip and attack on the strings is very sure and true. They keep it anchored in the sense of the song is maintained.

Then you have the people who hold on loosely. They live on the edge. They fly by the seat of their pants. But they mostly are guitarists that solo or primarily play lead. The fingers can fly faster without a firm grip on the neck.

Its mostly a theory of mine. I notice videos of my favorite bands with these nuances of loose or tight on the neck.

What kind of grip do you have, and how does it effect your style of playing??

Lexikat

Bitstrips of Guitar

There’s an online app I use called Bitstrips here.

I compose these from imaginary and real situations in my life. I gave my former partner the role of “voice of negativity and criticism” that grounds things in a more realistic state of being, as that was her once she had me move in.
I add the endearing fact that I had a dog in my life.
I posted the guitar themed ones here:

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Anyhow, you get the idea. You can create your own at Bitstrips.com

Ciao!

Lexikat

Don’t Need Nuthin’ But a Good Time

Sure, I could ask the question: “What drives you?” or “What makes life worth the grind and participation for you?” but I’m not.

I am simply going to state a few things that encompass my drive and grind:

  • Hard work yields opportunities that are limited by funds.
  • Cutting distractions saves money. (“Groupon” sites, random catalogs, emails from retailers)
  • Pouring into focus what you really want out of life into long-term manageable goals.
  • Removing people (including blood relatives) that are toxic, abusive, abrasive, etc.
  • Accepting your means (current job), and evaluating the tools needed to go “the distance.”

You will hit some bumps along your grind. You will find distractions being a constant…
but its how you deal with them in general that will help you stay your course.

-Lexikat

Effortless Guitar Playing Through Better Living

So I had properly set up my new ESP LTD GL-200K, and the momentum forward is truly insane for even my standards.

Since I spent a while with the cello (although not properly schooled), I find guitar strings are effortless to bend and fret. My passion from that period has spilled over as things like Ástor Piazzolla‘s Libertangothe dance has not gone to my feet but to my fingers across the fretboard/dance floor. One-and-two-and-half-and-up-and-back as my fingers sweep in a stumble but moving towards fluid motion as I have progressed. (The demands of my hands have changed to a larger and thicker finger pick than I had always used too.)

I find the tango to be a stumble-a flirtatious dance that sometimes is off-beat driven, rather than parallel to the beat in its sometimes hurried and staggering expressions.

I would also like to say that there are times that I do not feel like I am the one playing-the sum of which is truly mio cuore-my heart that is speaking through this music.

Lucifer has been cited as the seed/driving force for music at times. Funny enough that Lucifer is referred to as “The Morning Star” which we know to be the planet Venus-whereas Venus/Aphrodite are nowhere near the mythological implications of Lucifer. 

Perhaps the muse is the spirits of long deceased musicians talking through my body when I am playing. Perhaps it is the combined genetics of my paternal and maternal line that course through my veins that refuse to let the musician have her sleep.

The balance of my womanhood may have plateau’ed to allow this to wash over and through me. 

 And it seems that the sales representatives at my local guitar retailer are keen to helping me and I am pleasantly surprised when they don’t bat an eye for my appearance (as times in the past had occurred at other stores).

Rock on!

Lexikat